I did an intense study about being Poor in Spirit this evening. Much of it was filled with passages sharing how God deals with those who are broken before Him. As I was looking up some of the scriptures I stumbled upon a sermon on true Christianity. The study focused on Galatians 2:20 and Philippians 1:21. In my reading I was convicted on the idea of laying down my life before the Lord, of dying to myself and surrendering to Him. How petty and selfish I have been lately. It shames me to think of my prideful attitude. I have been dealing with a relational problem for several months now and if I’m not careful I let it consume my thoughts and my conversations. I’m afraid I forgot my own place of brokenness. I forgot my own unworthiness and helplessness before the Lord. I forgot that the Bible tells me to put other people before myself. I should be thinking more about how I can serve the Lord and how I can love Him and hunger and thirst for Him, and less about myself and my troubles and the ways I’ve been hurt.
Some Inter-Varsity W&M friends on graduation day
Galatians 2:20: I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
We sang this song often in Inter-Varsity when Tim and I attended the College of William and Mary. Tonight the words spoke to me anew. Jesus loved me so much He was willing to die for me. The life I live is in Him. I must come to Him emptied of my self, of my selfishness, of my own pride, even my own ideas of how life should go and be filled with Him. He offers true life, true bread and water, and a promise to always be with me.
This changes my perspective on many things!